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Farther Along
http://youtu.be/PrtdZ2_2z1U I love The Flying Burrito Brothers and their version of "Farther Along" is my all-time favorite. I've listened to that song since I was in my 20's, for almost 40 years now. Am I really that old?! Yes, yes I am, and after the year I just...
Goodbye, 2014. Hello, Gorgeous, 2015.
Some mornings I wake up and and ask myself have I really spent this whole year dealing with cancer? Me? After all I've been through this year--the waiting, the worry, the uncertainty, finally a proper diagnosis, a lumpectomy and axillary dissection, chemo, radiation,...
My Diet Pill Is Wearing Off
I love the original movie Hairspray. Love it. Divine was divine. This is my favorite line, "my diet pill is wearing off" and it's even more so now. I am so over cancer and I hope that cancer is over me because my diet pill is wearing off. I've had it with all the...
Taking A Break
I've been taking a break from my blog. Well, actually, I've been taking a break from having breast cancer. I know it's breast cancer awareness month because everywhere I go I see pink ribbons--checking into a hotel in Palm Springs for a wedding huge digital pictures...
The Elephant In The Room
We all have cancer cells in our bodies one of my doctors told me during the diagnosis period, then went on to say, "We just can't predict when they will explode and start replicating." I was like a four year old asking, "Why?" all the time. I wanted to know why I had...
Baseball Is Saving My Chemo Ass
Time. is. moving. sooo. slowly. TGIBS, Thank God It's Baseball Season because it's saving my chemo ass. I've always loved baseball and I've been an unabashed Yankees fan since the mid-80's, but I've never loved it more than I do now. It's hard for me to focus and...
Food Is Medicine And People Are Too
I never, ever, thought I'd say this, but yesterday I was glad to have chemo. I was supposed to have it last Monday but my platelet levels were low, at 85 and the threshold is 100. My doctor said I had to wait a week to build them back up otherwise I'd be at risk for...
Live Your Dreams
As I head into the second half of my chemo regime on Monday, I'm thinking about things people have said or written to me since I was first diagnosed. Many people, well meaning I suppose, have said that I will learn lessons from having cancer. Cancer is a teacher,...
Hanging In and Hanging On
I'm in new territory here. The only thing I'm doing these days is giving myself permission to just hang in there, hang on, and get through this cancer mess. For the first time in my life, I'm not accomplishing anything, I'm not pushing, and I'm not moving forward. It...
Round Two
As I get ready to head off to my second round of chemo today, I'm reflecting on how I've been a different version of myself lately, especially in the last three weeks since my first chemo. I'm weepy and quiet and have much less tolerance than I usually do for willful...